I don't get it. Well yeah, actually I do.
I have Cystic Fibrosis..that's why.
That's why, even though I've been on IV antibiotics for almost three weeks, I still feel sick. I do 3-4 treatments every day and STILL get sick.
I do this and I do that, over and over and over again.
I haven't had any energy since before I got admitted this past time. I've been dragging myself around just to get by everyday.
I'm freakin tired.
Ever since I had a really bad anxiety attack that sent me to the hospital about two years ago, my doctor always brings up my mental state. So now, everytime I mention my energy level he will say something about it. Honestly, I've been sooo much better in that department and it's aggravating when he does that. I get upset at times, but overall, I'm very happy. I have so much love and support surrounding me, and that's all I need and want. He says, "With your lung functions, I wouldn't say that they're the reason for your excessive fatigue. How have you been feeling mentally? Is everything okay?"
Okay, doctors are doctors. That's it. He knows what CF is, how it affects the body, what can be done (sometimes), BUT HE DOESN'T HAVE IT!!
My lung functions aren't the best, my doctor has even said this to me. Now, I'm not trying to say that the reasoning for my weakness and fatigue is indeed caused by my lungs, but I honestly believe that it's not because I'm "depressed" like some have said.
Anyways, no one knows your body better than yourself.
There's my rant for tonight.
I need to try..keyword, try...to get some sleep.
Me and Kim (Josh's mom)
Me and my wonderful brother